Why

Been so confused for quite a while. My mind can't still make a choice. Well, same goes for my heart. For him, "if ever you're in my arms again, this time I'll LOVE YOU MUCH BETTER" and for him, "bakit nga ba MAHAL KITA kahit DI PINAPANSIN ANG DAMDAMIN KO?" lastly, for both, " CAN'T LET GO ITS TOO STRONG". I just can't get over them. What did I see in them? Why did he let go of me? Why can't he love me? Why does every moment has to be so hard? :(